My rants will be going here whenever I wanan. I'll keep them things idm people knowing cuz this is a public website, so it'll probably just be me nerding out about stuff. TWs will be placed accordingly. Just a heads up for any prospective readers, I'm not transphobic or anything like that but I might speak on shit I don't know about so PLEASE call me out if I'm spreading misinformation so I can change things according to what I find (like, I'm not gonna call trans ppl pretenders but if I misquoted Karl Marx or Ayn Rand then I'll correct myself accordingly).
i honestly wonder sometimes if my desire to be an artist is just a more pretentious version of most kids' vapid desire to be a celeb. are stories about gay people smooching my tiktok dance??? i can't help but wonder about it, really. most people have that whole creative vision thing in their heads, with that whole "i wanna be a rapper" thing i kept hearing in midde school, like honestly i get sometimes kids think that music is EASY and all that dumb shit but at a certain point i just wonder if this is just an example of wanting to make something. like the human desire to create. how many people have that, and how many of those kids just don't respect the genre and think it'll be a quick ticket to fame? how many people think what they have to say is the new shakespeare, when really they're just... not shakespeare. like, lovecraft? but he's supposed to be good he's just also supposed to be a fucking dumbass. still, i do wonder what separates the masterful artist from the fucking idiot stumbling around. i know right NOW i'm an idiot stumbling around, 'cuz i haven't made my epic breakcore hit that's gonna so get me 10 krillion dollar, but how does someone... ASCEND artistically?? how can i??? go from stupid idiot to epic mentor. maybe I need a mentor??